A Good Day: Some Light in the Pandemic

So, hells, a pretty great day, between a sweetly feted birthday and news from a publisher about a new book of mine coming out. Cover, title, and all. Ironically, I had posted less than an hour before about a book of essays about writing horror I received as a gift and then, within the hour, I was posting about my book of sci-fi, fantasy and yes, predominantly horror stories. So such exultation!

Now I wonder, as the hour creeps later, whether I am not afraid of failure at all. Perhaps it is success that I am afraid of. Paradoxical, yes, but it may explain some things about how I can handle success or the idea of success, or perceive lack of.

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